Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day 2011
In May of 2008 I experienced a miscarriage of our first child. Now add in the military factor to the equation. My husband was at a duty station 15 hours away going to school. I was much to upset at the impending reality so I had to call a dear friend to drive me to the doctor's office. She stayed with me the entire day, and then took me home. We have some very special friends that we have made on our military journey. Another friend stepped in the next day to make sure I was not alone. I will forever remember the time the sit with me. The one who held my hand when I called my husband to tell him, and the sound of his voice after the news sunk in.
I often wonder what that precious little angel would have been like. I do however take joy in knowing that there is one more angel in heaven waiting on me. I am certain my baby angel is enjoy God's company, and entertaining my dad along with all my other family members that our looking down at us. We waited the recommend amount of time, and immediately tried again. Being lucky we were soon pregnant and did not have to wait long. The first months of my second pregnancy were spent on pins and needles waiting to hear the heartbeat. I made sure my husband was off work for the first ultrasound because I was terrified something would be wrong.
During the second pregnancy came what would have been the due date of our first child. So early December is not my favorite time of year. However I do take the time to think about the fact that God must have needed one more angel that day. I also remember that God has since blessed me with two little angels on earth with me.
This post is for all the loved one out there of the little angels in heaven. If you or someone you know has dealt with losing a child please remember them today. Light a candle tonight at 7pm in your time zone. Add to the wave of light.
I`m just a precious little one
who didn't make it there.
I went straight to be with Jesus,
but I`m waiting for you here.
Many dwelling here where I live,
waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorrow,
a world marred with pain and sin.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don`t complain.
I have all Heaven`s Glory,
suffered none of earth`s great pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me.
I`d have loved to bring it fame.
But if I`d lingered in earth`s shadows,
I would have suffered just the same.
So sweet family-don`t you sorrow.
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus` arms
from my loving Mother`s womb.
~Author Unknown
